Yes, lol. The shoes are somewhat confusing, on both of them. It makes more sense for Abeille since she was presumably in a hurry to chase after her mom, though I feel like she’d have grabbed some sort of futuristic slipper or something versus the gogo boots lol. Maybe gogo boots are futuristic slippers!!!! Miel, on the other hand, was napping and didn’t have shoes or socks on before, yet he somehow does now. Or maybe they’re just socks? Either way, he was barefoot. Magic shoes in this world, hehe 🙂
Yep. If someone alerts me to an error in a page (typo, missing jewelry, wrong clothing piece, an uncolored patch, wardrobe malfunction) I try to fix it as soon as possible so it doesn’t end up that way in the book later on down the road! ^_^
I am pretty sure this is just an outfit that everyone is interpreting as underwear. She has on a tunic top and shorts with lace with matching gogo boots. The heels of her boots match her top.
“I love you” is even clearer than “someone I love”. Some things like that have to be shown to me multiple times before all of me accepts it. Miel went through a similar process recognizing how he feels. I hope Abeille accepts.
I hope Abeille soon realizes that she’s better off without her mother in her life. I know from experience it’s hard to admit that someone close to you is being abusive, but the sooner you come to terms with that and put distance between yourself and that person, the better.
“I cannot cope with getting reminded constantly of my guilt” is certainly a feasible rationalisation for moving to another planet with different surroundings and weather conditions. It need not recognize the role of Amaryllis.
I can’t imagine how Abeille would not feel guilt. But, upturning your life to plant a garden in your sister’s honor probably involves other motivations as well and “running away” might suggest she was partly fleeing her mother (I don’t really think there are individual motivations. Some bit of drama acts to represent stuff that I motivate myself about).
There’s the scene with Daisy where she has some difficult thoughts about having left involving her mom being mean. I don’t think there is such a thing as “an emotion”. It seems more like amorphous ever changing and intermixing clouds of emotionality.
You know, I know he means well, but I’m actually not a fan of how Miel responded here. Telling someone who is at risk of losing a relationship with their parent (even if that parent was a garbage parent who shouldn’t have been a parent in the first place) that *you* don’t care if the parent ever understands is really insensitive.
I have basically no contact with my bio father and most of his family because they couldn’t accept my relationships. They’re awful and deserved to be cut off long before I did. However, even years later, it still hurts. If someone were to tell me they don’t care if my father ever changes, I wouldn’t feel supported, even if they reason they don’t care is because they recognize that he’s awful.
It sounded to me more like he doesn’t care if her mother doesn’t understand not that he doesn’t care about the relationship loss. Someone can not understand something and still have a relationship, especially if it doesn’t really affect them. I think that is more the point that he is going on here. It isn’t something that they have to explain or defend to other people. Also following it with only wanting to make her happy might mean having a conversation with her mother, which he did mention first. The point is, his focus isn’t her mother and her mother’s feelings but her and her feelings. Though I do understand why it would hurt to feel that they don’t care. I just see it more as an “I don’t care how they feel but I do care about how they make you feel”. It is a tight balancing act to both show understanding that this is important to you while also showing that you aren’t swayed by the third party’s feelings and opinions. Trying to turn it to what would make her happy instead of what would make her mom happy might be his way of trying to balance that. If she continues with saying she wants to try and work on the relationship with her mom, I think he would support her, but only because that is what she wants, not because it is what her mother or society wants. Sorry if I come across as insensitive since I am sure this is a harder topic for you than for me and sorry that your dad and his family are like that. I hope you found a supportive adoptive or other family at least.
That’s how I interpreted it too. Nothing is wrong with Abeille caring about her parents, it’s her parents abusing her that is wrong. It’s not black and white. I get the sense that she doesn’t feel alone anymore which could make a big difference in what she decides to do next. Not only is she not alone, her passion is confirmed and then strengthened by Miel and their joining. But, we’ll see.
Sorry to hear (read?) that. My Amaryllis parent isn’t so toxic that I’d have to cut ties with them, but even me distancing myself emotionally and cutting that umbilical cord has caused us both a lot of grief. I can only imagine how hard it must be to have to reject this part of your life so completely.
That said, I think I’d like that kind of support in my life (that Miel gives Abeille here). I agree with Kimi above, not understanding doesn’t mean not loving a person anymore (tbd if Amaryllis ever really loved Abeille), and while it’s okay to be sad and disappointed about your parent’s lack of approval, it’s also good to realize you don’t need it to do what makes you happy (and doesn’t hurt anyone). My interpretation of this is that Miel doesn’t want Amaryllis to dictate Abeille’s life. As someone whose parent has basically inhabited their head, judging them from within, I like what I see here.
(On the other hand, I hope Abeille is ready to hear it; when I was still basically an extension of my Amaryllis, any critical words from anyone meant that I had to defend them tooth and nail, because they were the perfect parent, and I was the screw-up daughter. I hope Abeille is past all this, if she ever had a phase like that).
I think I misunderstood. If someone said they don’t care if your father ever changes, it would be unsupportive not because it’s disrespecting your father, but because it would be like saying it’s ok if with someone, if your father keeps disrespecting you.
I agree that there’s something about Miel’s reply that makes me uncomfortable. Reading kimi’s reply to you, I think what bothers me is that his reply isn’t about what Abeille is saying she’s feeling right now; it’s about what he’s feeling right now. I think if I was Abeille and I was really, really focused on how my mother doesn’t understand me, this would feel a little like Miel didn’t understand me either. Saying “I love you” would be a way he was deflecting the conversation away from a painful, personal subject that I, nevertheless, really want to deal with now onto a happy feeling that Miel was experiencing but was actually far from my own mind.
On the other hand, maybe Abeille’s primary concern is unspoken: Abeille might be feeling like her mother doesn’t love her anymore. If that’s her primary focus, then perhaps Miel’s statement is just what she needs to hear: even if your mother doesn’t understand you and love you, I still do.
Looks like he’s first and foremost trying to keep her from spiraling. As valid as her thoughts and feelings are she is free falling right now, obviously. She has to unwind a little to be able to THINK instead of panicking. Also… breaking Amaryllis’ spell of “focus on meeee instead of your own feelings” really needed to be broken with a “none of her matters right now, only YOU matter to me”
The only slippery slope/ red flag here would be “you don’t need anyone else, depend ONLY on ME” coming from Miel
How did you get that from “I just want to make you happy because I love you?”
But anyway, parents can be toxic, and we’ve seen already that Amaryllis is violently toxic, so I think we all know she will never understand. Miel saying it out loud isn’t insensitive. It’s not something he has room to worry about, and that’s good for Abeille, who is spiraling about it, like Mead said. We’ve already seen what happens when she spirals (thinking of her sister’s death while she was racing, she collapsed), and it’s not good.
Poor Abeille. The “I’m not a kid anymore. I’m an independent adult and I don’t have to spend my time appeasing the Angry Mother in order to survive.” realization can take a while to really sink in. And of course, Mom is doing everything in her power to keep Abeille in the old mindset and under her control.
Still… her worries have been my worries for a while now – Amaryllis is not done hurting them.
She wasn’t obeyed by Abeille. She wasn’t sympathised with by Miel’s moms.
Now she will seek being listened to by the media.
The story can become about the controversy of the touch taboo in the context of the media and world; so far it has been about that in the context of personal relationships.
I don’t think Miel has yet internalized what he’s asking of her. He’s offering a lot, but he’s also asking her to accept that she is going to be in open conflict with her mother that she can’t heal. Even when that’s for the best (which it seems to be here) that’s a lot to put on a person.
What are her options there though. Either subservience and self-erasure or this open conflict you’re talking about. It’s Amaryllis that left her with no good choices, Miel’s just encouraging Abeille to take the one that leaves room for a happy and fulfilling life. And if Amaryllis doesn’t want to be a part of that life, well, so be it.
It looks to me like he’s presenting two scenarios. If Amaryllis will not change at all, say no to Amaryllis. But, since its unresolved as far as where the story could lead and in how Abeille feels, he’s offering to help talk to her and protect Abeille from open conflict. He’s already suggested that he’s willing to lose the Doublefleur position in order to be with Abeille.
Gosh his reaction is so sweet. Poor Abielle is under so much stress from her mother…
She needs someone like Miel to show her a true love.
I’m just now really looking at her… Is that poor girl in nothing but her sleepwear and gogo boots?!?
Yes, lol. The shoes are somewhat confusing, on both of them. It makes more sense for Abeille since she was presumably in a hurry to chase after her mom, though I feel like she’d have grabbed some sort of futuristic slipper or something versus the gogo boots lol. Maybe gogo boots are futuristic slippers!!!! Miel, on the other hand, was napping and didn’t have shoes or socks on before, yet he somehow does now. Or maybe they’re just socks? Either way, he was barefoot. Magic shoes in this world, hehe 🙂
Nice, you managed to cause a retcon of the page. He has bare feets now, as he should
Yep. If someone alerts me to an error in a page (typo, missing jewelry, wrong clothing piece, an uncolored patch, wardrobe malfunction) I try to fix it as soon as possible so it doesn’t end up that way in the book later on down the road! ^_^
I am pretty sure this is just an outfit that everyone is interpreting as underwear. She has on a tunic top and shorts with lace with matching gogo boots. The heels of her boots match her top.
“I love you” is even clearer than “someone I love”. Some things like that have to be shown to me multiple times before all of me accepts it. Miel went through a similar process recognizing how he feels. I hope Abeille accepts.
I hope Abeille soon realizes that she’s better off without her mother in her life. I know from experience it’s hard to admit that someone close to you is being abusive, but the sooner you come to terms with that and put distance between yourself and that person, the better.
She must have on some level at least. I mean, she DID move to a whole other planet, after all.
“I cannot cope with getting reminded constantly of my guilt” is certainly a feasible rationalisation for moving to another planet with different surroundings and weather conditions. It need not recognize the role of Amaryllis.
I can’t imagine how Abeille would not feel guilt. But, upturning your life to plant a garden in your sister’s honor probably involves other motivations as well and “running away” might suggest she was partly fleeing her mother (I don’t really think there are individual motivations. Some bit of drama acts to represent stuff that I motivate myself about).
There’s the scene with Daisy where she has some difficult thoughts about having left involving her mom being mean. I don’t think there is such a thing as “an emotion”. It seems more like amorphous ever changing and intermixing clouds of emotionality.
You know, I know he means well, but I’m actually not a fan of how Miel responded here. Telling someone who is at risk of losing a relationship with their parent (even if that parent was a garbage parent who shouldn’t have been a parent in the first place) that *you* don’t care if the parent ever understands is really insensitive.
I have basically no contact with my bio father and most of his family because they couldn’t accept my relationships. They’re awful and deserved to be cut off long before I did. However, even years later, it still hurts. If someone were to tell me they don’t care if my father ever changes, I wouldn’t feel supported, even if they reason they don’t care is because they recognize that he’s awful.
It sounded to me more like he doesn’t care if her mother doesn’t understand not that he doesn’t care about the relationship loss. Someone can not understand something and still have a relationship, especially if it doesn’t really affect them. I think that is more the point that he is going on here. It isn’t something that they have to explain or defend to other people. Also following it with only wanting to make her happy might mean having a conversation with her mother, which he did mention first. The point is, his focus isn’t her mother and her mother’s feelings but her and her feelings. Though I do understand why it would hurt to feel that they don’t care. I just see it more as an “I don’t care how they feel but I do care about how they make you feel”. It is a tight balancing act to both show understanding that this is important to you while also showing that you aren’t swayed by the third party’s feelings and opinions. Trying to turn it to what would make her happy instead of what would make her mom happy might be his way of trying to balance that. If she continues with saying she wants to try and work on the relationship with her mom, I think he would support her, but only because that is what she wants, not because it is what her mother or society wants. Sorry if I come across as insensitive since I am sure this is a harder topic for you than for me and sorry that your dad and his family are like that. I hope you found a supportive adoptive or other family at least.
That’s how I interpreted it too. Nothing is wrong with Abeille caring about her parents, it’s her parents abusing her that is wrong. It’s not black and white. I get the sense that she doesn’t feel alone anymore which could make a big difference in what she decides to do next. Not only is she not alone, her passion is confirmed and then strengthened by Miel and their joining. But, we’ll see.
Sorry to hear (read?) that. My Amaryllis parent isn’t so toxic that I’d have to cut ties with them, but even me distancing myself emotionally and cutting that umbilical cord has caused us both a lot of grief. I can only imagine how hard it must be to have to reject this part of your life so completely.
That said, I think I’d like that kind of support in my life (that Miel gives Abeille here). I agree with Kimi above, not understanding doesn’t mean not loving a person anymore (tbd if Amaryllis ever really loved Abeille), and while it’s okay to be sad and disappointed about your parent’s lack of approval, it’s also good to realize you don’t need it to do what makes you happy (and doesn’t hurt anyone). My interpretation of this is that Miel doesn’t want Amaryllis to dictate Abeille’s life. As someone whose parent has basically inhabited their head, judging them from within, I like what I see here.
(On the other hand, I hope Abeille is ready to hear it; when I was still basically an extension of my Amaryllis, any critical words from anyone meant that I had to defend them tooth and nail, because they were the perfect parent, and I was the screw-up daughter. I hope Abeille is past all this, if she ever had a phase like that).
The severing of a relationship is sad, but you shouldn’t bend over backwards in service of maybe someday being accepted by shitty people.
I think I misunderstood. If someone said they don’t care if your father ever changes, it would be unsupportive not because it’s disrespecting your father, but because it would be like saying it’s ok if with someone, if your father keeps disrespecting you.
I agree that there’s something about Miel’s reply that makes me uncomfortable. Reading kimi’s reply to you, I think what bothers me is that his reply isn’t about what Abeille is saying she’s feeling right now; it’s about what he’s feeling right now. I think if I was Abeille and I was really, really focused on how my mother doesn’t understand me, this would feel a little like Miel didn’t understand me either. Saying “I love you” would be a way he was deflecting the conversation away from a painful, personal subject that I, nevertheless, really want to deal with now onto a happy feeling that Miel was experiencing but was actually far from my own mind.
On the other hand, maybe Abeille’s primary concern is unspoken: Abeille might be feeling like her mother doesn’t love her anymore. If that’s her primary focus, then perhaps Miel’s statement is just what she needs to hear: even if your mother doesn’t understand you and love you, I still do.
Looks like he’s first and foremost trying to keep her from spiraling. As valid as her thoughts and feelings are she is free falling right now, obviously. She has to unwind a little to be able to THINK instead of panicking. Also… breaking Amaryllis’ spell of “focus on meeee instead of your own feelings” really needed to be broken with a “none of her matters right now, only YOU matter to me”
The only slippery slope/ red flag here would be “you don’t need anyone else, depend ONLY on ME” coming from Miel
She needs to be pulled into the healthier mindset that SHE MATTERS.
I think that’s what Miel is focusing on right now.
How did you get that from “I just want to make you happy because I love you?”
But anyway, parents can be toxic, and we’ve seen already that Amaryllis is violently toxic, so I think we all know she will never understand. Miel saying it out loud isn’t insensitive. It’s not something he has room to worry about, and that’s good for Abeille, who is spiraling about it, like Mead said. We’ve already seen what happens when she spirals (thinking of her sister’s death while she was racing, she collapsed), and it’s not good.
love found :’)
^^^^but comic not over
Poor Abeille. The “I’m not a kid anymore. I’m an independent adult and I don’t have to spend my time appeasing the Angry Mother in order to survive.” realization can take a while to really sink in. And of course, Mom is doing everything in her power to keep Abeille in the old mindset and under her control.
Amaryllis and Mallow may be her parents, but it’s clear THIS house is where her family is. <3
No. You didn’t screw up.
You’re right that it’s unlikely she will understand. But that’s not your responsibility.
It wasn’t for a while now.
YAAAASSSS!!!
Still… her worries have been my worries for a while now – Amaryllis is not done hurting them.
She wasn’t obeyed by Abeille. She wasn’t sympathised with by Miel’s moms.
Now she will seek being listened to by the media.
The story can become about the controversy of the touch taboo in the context of the media and world; so far it has been about that in the context of personal relationships.
I don’t think Miel has yet internalized what he’s asking of her. He’s offering a lot, but he’s also asking her to accept that she is going to be in open conflict with her mother that she can’t heal. Even when that’s for the best (which it seems to be here) that’s a lot to put on a person.
What are her options there though. Either subservience and self-erasure or this open conflict you’re talking about. It’s Amaryllis that left her with no good choices, Miel’s just encouraging Abeille to take the one that leaves room for a happy and fulfilling life. And if Amaryllis doesn’t want to be a part of that life, well, so be it.
It looks to me like he’s presenting two scenarios. If Amaryllis will not change at all, say no to Amaryllis. But, since its unresolved as far as where the story could lead and in how Abeille feels, he’s offering to help talk to her and protect Abeille from open conflict. He’s already suggested that he’s willing to lose the Doublefleur position in order to be with Abeille.
LOVE! YES! FOUND!