AUTHOR'S NOTE: I ended up removing the stripes off of her slip. It looked too much like a dress/outfit change rather than her just removing her skirt and unbuttoning her jacket.
It takes courage to admit you need health, and grow past the need to pretend nothing’s wrong since you’re used to people putting on a false front, and then strike like a rattlesnake once you’ve admitted your weakness to them- as her relationship with her mother testifies.
I’m glad she’s got her support now <3 I wonder why she didn't call him right away. Was she too distressed, or simply didn't want to bother him? I've certainly been there.
On the other hand, I'm really happy for Miel! Things are really turning out well.
Yeah, I took the striped piece as a sort of short dress rather than an undergarment at the time. This makes more sense for Abeille’s current thermal generics.
Emotionally before with old arguments with my own belated Dad, even though if I would’ve won some of them in spite of his overbearing attitude, I would sometimes feel the way Abeille does here afterwards. Not because of standing up for yourself but rather that after so many of our arguments, you feel sick of having them with someone you would’ve liked to had a better and healthier relationship instead of the usual stupid toxicity. Some might think I’m lucky now to not having to deal with him anymore but you can’t help reflect back on it now and again; trying to better understand why things had to been that way between us. Mostly now it’s about learning to be better than what was done and experienced with him and trying not to repeat the worst mistakes from that time. A good private cry or some journaling helps with releasing that hurt.
Darlin’, right there with you! I had to remove myself completely from my toxic family, moved really far away just like Abeille and started a new life, but unlike Abeille I left absolutely no forwarding address, no number, no contact, nothing. Nine years later, I have the life I want with my chosen family and a wonderful partner! No one has to put up with abuse, EVER!
Same here, mate. My mom passed 3 years ago. Whenever I see her area code on my phone, I get a mild panic attack. I tried heal hard to keep the peace, but after marrying someone of another religion, my family turned on me. In the end, I moved across the country. Phone calls with her were either family updates, or lectures and sermons. Near the end, it was more sermons than family talk. I had been avoiding her for over a month because Easter was coming up and her sermons were always worse around that time of year, but then she had a heart attack. It’s weird to have guilt and relief at the same time.
I didn’t have guilt when my maternal host beast died. Instead I called my sisterinlove and asked “Is my brother anywhere close to you? Is he close by where he can hear your My brother was her Golden child, I was her her Sca phone?” She, mystified said “No, he’s out in the yard.” I said “Promise me you’ll never tell him about this”. I burst into song “Ding dong the witch is dead! The wicked witch is dead”. She started laughing. My brother had been her Golden Child, I had been her Scapegoat. You would think being married to her Golden Child my SIL would become a Golden Child, instead she became another Scapegoat like me. The only regret I felt about maternal host’s beast’s death was that I had never stuck to my 2 attempts to go No Contact with her.
If Abeille has been protecting people from her mother’s behavior and trying to handle things alone, Miel fits perfectly by not pushing his support on her.
10 thoughts on “Love Not Found – Ch24, p48”
Grandmotherbear
It takes courage to admit you need health, and grow past the need to pretend nothing’s wrong since you’re used to people putting on a false front, and then strike like a rattlesnake once you’ve admitted your weakness to them- as her relationship with her mother testifies.
notamushimaster
I’m glad she’s got her support now <3 I wonder why she didn't call him right away. Was she too distressed, or simply didn't want to bother him? I've certainly been there.
On the other hand, I'm really happy for Miel! Things are really turning out well.
Jenny
Yeah, I took the striped piece as a sort of short dress rather than an undergarment at the time. This makes more sense for Abeille’s current thermal generics.
Emotionally before with old arguments with my own belated Dad, even though if I would’ve won some of them in spite of his overbearing attitude, I would sometimes feel the way Abeille does here afterwards. Not because of standing up for yourself but rather that after so many of our arguments, you feel sick of having them with someone you would’ve liked to had a better and healthier relationship instead of the usual stupid toxicity. Some might think I’m lucky now to not having to deal with him anymore but you can’t help reflect back on it now and again; trying to better understand why things had to been that way between us. Mostly now it’s about learning to be better than what was done and experienced with him and trying not to repeat the worst mistakes from that time. A good private cry or some journaling helps with releasing that hurt.
Fuzzybeard
I hope that Abielle can free herself from her mother’s influence. I never felt free of my mother’s influence until about a year after she passed.
SB
Darlin’, right there with you! I had to remove myself completely from my toxic family, moved really far away just like Abeille and started a new life, but unlike Abeille I left absolutely no forwarding address, no number, no contact, nothing. Nine years later, I have the life I want with my chosen family and a wonderful partner! No one has to put up with abuse, EVER!
TromboneGrrl
Same here, mate. My mom passed 3 years ago. Whenever I see her area code on my phone, I get a mild panic attack. I tried heal hard to keep the peace, but after marrying someone of another religion, my family turned on me. In the end, I moved across the country. Phone calls with her were either family updates, or lectures and sermons. Near the end, it was more sermons than family talk. I had been avoiding her for over a month because Easter was coming up and her sermons were always worse around that time of year, but then she had a heart attack. It’s weird to have guilt and relief at the same time.
Grandmotherbear
I didn’t have guilt when my maternal host beast died. Instead I called my sisterinlove and asked “Is my brother anywhere close to you? Is he close by where he can hear your My brother was her Golden child, I was her her Sca phone?” She, mystified said “No, he’s out in the yard.” I said “Promise me you’ll never tell him about this”. I burst into song “Ding dong the witch is dead! The wicked witch is dead”. She started laughing. My brother had been her Golden Child, I had been her Scapegoat. You would think being married to her Golden Child my SIL would become a Golden Child, instead she became another Scapegoat like me. The only regret I felt about maternal host’s beast’s death was that I had never stuck to my 2 attempts to go No Contact with her.
JillOfTrades
Glad to see a new page! There’s a space between the M and E in the first panel in the middle
Grandmotherbear
Dam spell chek 2nd line is supposed to be “where he can hear your phone?’ 3rd line should scapegoat eliminating the Phone”.
Kendall🔆🌻
If Abeille has been protecting people from her mother’s behavior and trying to handle things alone, Miel fits perfectly by not pushing his support on her.
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