It’s easy for her to have been the best daughter when she’s dead and she can’t do anything her mother disapproves of so her mother can romanticize the memory of who she was :/
She was probably the Best Daughter when she was alive too – Evette and Abeille definitely got the GC/scapegoat treatment. But you’re not wrong – Amaryllis knows she can control the narrative however she wants.
And boom! Right there. One of the cardinal rules of parenting- never pick favorites. While my mom never picked favorites, I have been told, “Why can you more like your brother?” Thankfully that stopped, but the kicker for me was when I made a huge mistake and feared telling my parents because I knew what their reactions would be, especially my mother’s. Well the truth did come out and my mom really blew up, more so because I never told her of my mistake. And I’ll never forget these words, “What I have done to fail as a mother?” Now at the time, I still wasn’t 100% in my right mind either since I was still depressed. I interpreted her words as, “Am I a failure than?” I would overcome this realizing I had to put myself first. My mother is your typical helicopter parent and she has gaslit me over the years too. Thankfully she’s not as bad as Abeille’s mom.
I’m sorry that happened to you – I experienced a lot of that too growing up, and it’s unfortunate how much it sticks around years later. Wishing you healing from the trauma
Abeille and Mallow: Evette was a wonderful woman who was kind and gentle and was a light in everyone’s life.
Amaryllis: she made me look good.
Just reading her words makes it sound so robotic. Even in Evette’s diary this woman was an overbearing presence.
Abeille’s expression is something I’ve seen on my own. Her mom’s words are some I’ve heard from my own mom. Thankfully my sister is still alive, but I will never ever be the daughter spoken about with kind words. It’s taken me years to accept that, and I still hope that I will hear words of pride from my mother (even though she has seen therapy for it), but I know I will never fill that expectation. I’ve given up that part.
This whole sequence has been for a lack of better word, triggering, but not in a bad way. Seeing a character like Abeille work through it, flaws and all has been very cathartic for me and I am grateful she exists. I am rooting for her so badly that I’ve found myself rooting for me too (selfish as it sounds). I don’t have her found family, or a Miel but I think that if she gets through this, maybe I can too.
Look, I’m just grateful that someone out there has captured the feeling of being “the not good kid” so well in a single page and even though she’s fictional, I hope Abeille gets through this and finds her happiness.
Abeille has has a hard time both from being disrespected by her mother and by her achievements not being the obvious kind. Evette saw how brilliant Abeille is. Even without a troubled mother, the type of praise one gets for academic or work achievements is different from being good at ringette or what Abeille has done on Monotropa. I think that is a fault of society and not the child or the mother. I think Amaryllis is jealous of Abeille for being so admirable without having achieved in the way that Amaryllis thinks one should.
A difficult child/mother is hard to handle. I don’t know what else Abeille could be doing. Armor on. Fully aware. The only person unaware is Amaryllis.
Amaryllis has “amma” in her name. Amma mama. We become independent of our mother. We don’t have to hate our mother to do that.
I don’t think we have to fix our mother. It would be abuse to fix your child.
Anyway where will this go. Mom is purely cold and bitter reaching out to Abeille. She wants something of Abeille. I will obey. Does that work? No. Good mommy.
Oh. My. Gosh. Textbook narcissism, 10/10 for accurate portrayal of this mental illness. Too bad she’s displaying ZERO desire to get some help for it. Like, walk away now Mallow and Abeille. I hope Abeille at least does stick to some serious boundaries; her mother is, ugh.
Amaryllis’ eulogy is clearly more about what she got out of from being Evette’s mother rather than what she had experienced together with Evette as her daughter. Although she seems appreciative of the results she got from Evette, Amaryllis has not mention once what she had liked or cared for about Evette as a person over being an idol of her own desired preference; may as well been a stranger saying this about her.
It is a mystery to me what Amaryllis is motivated by. Something narcissistic I suppose, but within that I can’t imagine that she knows that. Maybe she needs to be able to tell herself that her daughter has come back, that she didn’t fail her daughter. Everything is about appearances. She and her husband are their achievements, to her. Evette fit into that scheme. Here are some outdated links to pages which mention Evette https://lovenotfound-fans.fandom.com/wiki/Evette Aside from being free from Amaryllis, it seems generally important to understand why she is the way she is. I certainly act out of jealousy sometimes. Amaryllis shows what not to do, very well.
As soon as her bubble bursts, she’ll likely finally spit out or show what it is out of dejected frustration. Amaryllis needs a long-overdue, rude awakening here of what she really accomplished by her daughters and husband.
OOF she’s rotten to the core. also it’s an interesting touch that abeille and mallow’s pages both involve panels of memories of their time with evette and amaryllis does not have such a panel. she’s not remembering her daughter in any meaningful way, she’s performing to make herself look better and make others feel worse as usual.
21 thoughts on “Love Not Found – Ch24, p39”
Thorn
God. This absolute trashomatic.
Floweramon
It’s easy for her to have been the best daughter when she’s dead and she can’t do anything her mother disapproves of so her mother can romanticize the memory of who she was :/
Crane
She was probably the Best Daughter when she was alive too – Evette and Abeille definitely got the GC/scapegoat treatment. But you’re not wrong – Amaryllis knows she can control the narrative however she wants.
MB
Ah yes… there it is. (*sigh*). Poison in the well.
Tiffany
And boom! Right there. One of the cardinal rules of parenting- never pick favorites. While my mom never picked favorites, I have been told, “Why can you more like your brother?” Thankfully that stopped, but the kicker for me was when I made a huge mistake and feared telling my parents because I knew what their reactions would be, especially my mother’s. Well the truth did come out and my mom really blew up, more so because I never told her of my mistake. And I’ll never forget these words, “What I have done to fail as a mother?” Now at the time, I still wasn’t 100% in my right mind either since I was still depressed. I interpreted her words as, “Am I a failure than?” I would overcome this realizing I had to put myself first. My mother is your typical helicopter parent and she has gaslit me over the years too. Thankfully she’s not as bad as Abeille’s mom.
Crane
I’m sorry that happened to you – I experienced a lot of that too growing up, and it’s unfortunate how much it sticks around years later. Wishing you healing from the trauma
PuMa
Abeille and Mallow: Evette was a wonderful woman who was kind and gentle and was a light in everyone’s life.
Amaryllis: she made me look good.
Just reading her words makes it sound so robotic. Even in Evette’s diary this woman was an overbearing presence.
Bleuryder
Abeille’s expression is something I’ve seen on my own. Her mom’s words are some I’ve heard from my own mom. Thankfully my sister is still alive, but I will never ever be the daughter spoken about with kind words. It’s taken me years to accept that, and I still hope that I will hear words of pride from my mother (even though she has seen therapy for it), but I know I will never fill that expectation. I’ve given up that part.
This whole sequence has been for a lack of better word, triggering, but not in a bad way. Seeing a character like Abeille work through it, flaws and all has been very cathartic for me and I am grateful she exists. I am rooting for her so badly that I’ve found myself rooting for me too (selfish as it sounds). I don’t have her found family, or a Miel but I think that if she gets through this, maybe I can too.
Look, I’m just grateful that someone out there has captured the feeling of being “the not good kid” so well in a single page and even though she’s fictional, I hope Abeille gets through this and finds her happiness.
Kendall🔆🌻
Abeille has has a hard time both from being disrespected by her mother and by her achievements not being the obvious kind. Evette saw how brilliant Abeille is. Even without a troubled mother, the type of praise one gets for academic or work achievements is different from being good at ringette or what Abeille has done on Monotropa. I think that is a fault of society and not the child or the mother. I think Amaryllis is jealous of Abeille for being so admirable without having achieved in the way that Amaryllis thinks one should.
Kendall🔆🌻
And?
A difficult child/mother is hard to handle. I don’t know what else Abeille could be doing. Armor on. Fully aware. The only person unaware is Amaryllis.
Amaryllis has “amma” in her name. Amma mama. We become independent of our mother. We don’t have to hate our mother to do that.
I don’t think we have to fix our mother. It would be abuse to fix your child.
Anyway where will this go. Mom is purely cold and bitter reaching out to Abeille. She wants something of Abeille. I will obey. Does that work? No. Good mommy.
Artsybigrl
Oh. My. Gosh. Textbook narcissism, 10/10 for accurate portrayal of this mental illness. Too bad she’s displaying ZERO desire to get some help for it. Like, walk away now Mallow and Abeille. I hope Abeille at least does stick to some serious boundaries; her mother is, ugh.
Tammie
Goddess, Gina you are doing a great job making me hate her like I do lol
Jenny
Amaryllis’ eulogy is clearly more about what she got out of from being Evette’s mother rather than what she had experienced together with Evette as her daughter. Although she seems appreciative of the results she got from Evette, Amaryllis has not mention once what she had liked or cared for about Evette as a person over being an idol of her own desired preference; may as well been a stranger saying this about her.
Bartimaeus
Getting a distinct sense of mom’s priorities.
Kendall🔆🌻
It is a mystery to me what Amaryllis is motivated by. Something narcissistic I suppose, but within that I can’t imagine that she knows that. Maybe she needs to be able to tell herself that her daughter has come back, that she didn’t fail her daughter. Everything is about appearances. She and her husband are their achievements, to her. Evette fit into that scheme. Here are some outdated links to pages which mention Evette https://lovenotfound-fans.fandom.com/wiki/Evette Aside from being free from Amaryllis, it seems generally important to understand why she is the way she is. I certainly act out of jealousy sometimes. Amaryllis shows what not to do, very well.
Jenny
As soon as her bubble bursts, she’ll likely finally spit out or show what it is out of dejected frustration. Amaryllis needs a long-overdue, rude awakening here of what she really accomplished by her daughters and husband.
MishMish
OMG I hate her mother. The woman actually managed to weasel in a guilt trip even into the memory ceremony of another.
Crane
No crying at your sister’s memorial!
Deb R.B.
I was dreading this page for this very reason! I hate this woman.
fractalwolf
…and how, exactly, is this supposed to convince the non-best daughter to go home with her?
pax
OOF she’s rotten to the core. also it’s an interesting touch that abeille and mallow’s pages both involve panels of memories of their time with evette and amaryllis does not have such a panel. she’s not remembering her daughter in any meaningful way, she’s performing to make herself look better and make others feel worse as usual.
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